Tuesday, September 4, 2012

It's a Start (Inspiration)

Back at the tail-end of spring we had a mishap with my laptop. One minute, we were goobering it up in front of Mac's Photobooth, me and my bedtime bidden boys. And then the computer froze. I attempted to restart it, and finally did a force shutdown. And then: blue screen.

The diagnosis? Dead hard drive. Good bye, videos of my children (all the ones that didn't make it to facebook). Pictures, too. Good bye all those crochet patterns I'd been working on. At least 10 in-progress patterns were lost. I could have cried.  I cried. A lot more than I should have. For a couple of days. I obsessed over the whole thing. Kicked myself for not backing things up on our external hard drive. Was upset I never uploaded all those baby videos to facebook (I mean, who wanted to see a 5 month old baby playing with blocks for 8 minutes? Besides his parents, of course).

And despite getting my lappy back from the lovely people at the Apple store "fixed", I couldn't bring myself to write more patterns. Not the more complex ones, for sale on Etsy. I distrusted the daggon thing (I *still* do, if I'm honest. The screen's getting wonky. I need to shop for a computer...). And the idea of starting over with my pattern template, with my pictures, with my folders, with my Purple Chair Crochet in general made me queasy and reminded me of the loss of everything. Honestly, losing the patterns was the sprinkles on the cupcake (I don't like cherries. And I suspect I'm misusing this metaphor).

So, I gave myself a break.  I put the etsy shop on vacation mode (despite my PDFs being safely stored in my gmail account). I blogged a bit, here and there this summer. The inspiration struck to start crocheting for charity. But the designing? Nope. Didn't happen.

I gave my break a deadline of Labor day for no other reason than it seemed appropriate. And now Labor Day's come and gone (gulp) and I have to get back into designing. I started sketching a few things in my notebook earlier today. A cowl I want to make. Very basic. A wardrobe staple. I'll start back small. But it's a start.

Have a Lovely Day!


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